I'm Happy

From left clockwise: Ella Leung, Emily Tsoi, Nicole Tham, Me, Yuen Mei Wan, Elin Tham (with the hoodie), Juanlin Yip & Yvonne Kwong who is taking the photograph

A day with a wonderful bunch of friends.

Honestly, if you had asked me a year ago whether I was happy.
I would have replied yes. Of course. After all. I have all I want and my parents were there to celebrate it with me.
What I admit I didn't like not having was a social life or close friends. I wouldn't have said I was happy in that sense. Not in the closest.
Not saying the people I had back in Malaysia aren't close but I mean, like when most dire situations come. You need people who are 'there'. Who are in your present to comfort or support you. Not in some distant continent or are often too busy doing other things when you have already mentioned you'd like to keep in contact (don't worry, Al if you ever read this. It doesn't apply to you or Man Yun in anyway).
But I was and still am happy. I have best friends, close friends, friends, family, randoms. Haha. And still living in a world that still exists and with wonderful and different people in it. Each in their very own way unique.

I went a bit tear eyed at the dinner table today when they handed me presents.
When I say they. I mean the friends I've just gained from being here in boarding school at PLC, Australia for just a single year.
They were all so enthusiastic and happy. Of course I wouldn't ruin the mood by crying and making them think I'm sad. I admit. While in Lebanon, I cried tears of despair on my birthday.
The only things that pulled me together had to be my birthday gifts from my cousins back home in Malaysia. I owe so much to them. I really do. -I've so got to find a picture of this-
Also, the presents I received from my parents and trying to 'savor' the greetings I got from people during the day.
Atleast 95% of the people I had been greeted by in Lebanon did not know how old I actually was.

My 13th birthday present from my Parents :)

I get it. Isolation is not an easy thing to understand.

Even though I am entirely away it has yet to be my birthday. This is enough.
At the dinner table with the two cakes laid out on the table for both my twin (who was looking glum herself since the end of the school day) and I, I couldn't help thinking back to the times I had been back in Beirut.
I knew my parents were worried for me but it just couldn't ease the pain. The loneliness I felt there was near unbearable. I literally had NO ONE to talk to.
Sometimes, you need someone your age to talk to you.

We know our parents love us but sometimes it's just too difficult. I believe many would understand what I am saying right here.

My parents keep sending me encouraging emails that I find utterly wonderful and my friends here, if one doesn't have the time, another does. I guess these are the advantages of being boarders'. There are always people there for you. Whether you're in the dumps or not.

My twin (Elin Tham) and I with our cakes laid out in front of us

Happy Birthday ^^ Cakes selected by Juanlin Yip and Nicole Tham

As far as I know, coming to Australia has sure made me HAPPIER. 

Haha. :)

Love,
Evelyn Wong~Ocean Lover